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2011-06-24T01:19:00.000-07:00

Hi New Fren,

I've found it. Like finally and u owe me 2 happy meals not i own you! See the following!

"I had a new friend. A friend that kinda make me understand certain facts i dun wan and refused to face. i hope this friend to always stay happy, bad things seems rolling to this fren non-stop. But i wont forget u still owe me 2 happy meals ok!"

lol.

2011-06-23T23:57:00.000-07:00

The dumbest person in the world

Someone remindeed me that i actually used to blog in the most unexpected way. But i still couldnt find the entry that say " i had a new fren, a fren that kinda make me understand certain facts i dun wan and refused to face. i hope this fren to.........." Anyway, gone are the days when we can just shoot everything out of our mouth and say or comment whatever we want. Thoughts and emotions are to be well delivered too. Have we reach the days where happiness no longer feels so happy, sadness no longer gives pain and anger no longer stays long with us?

2009-04-22T14:34:00.001-07:00

someone end those fuck up shit pls.
=.-

2009-02-27T01:50:00.000-08:00

i thought ppl only always say monday blue?

how come i have friday blue as well?

or rather recently, everyday is blue?

happiness come to me, happy life come to me.

can someone make me smile? =''(

2009-01-01T09:06:00.000-08:00

MERRY X'MAS!!! =)=)

Lst time i had xmas cake during xmas, instead of birthday song we had xmas carols!

Smokers say YO!!!

Look at the bottles! Guess how many ppl went to the chalet? Only 10.

Party monster in the HOUSE.

No human pictures, cos all are monster!

2008-12-19T21:15:00.000-08:00

#1. Five more days to farewell. so sad.
#2. Till now den i really starts to chiong for sales.
#3. Im still at square one.
#4. Wher to find 12 pieces of nice chocolate other than godiva? all 16 pieces.
#5. My shopping list getting longer and longer.
#6. Girl, smile please?

2008-12-19T20:53:00.000-08:00

Accompanied xiuling to take her bridal photo.

It took the whole day man. From 9.30 in the morning till abt 8pm.

Her husband is really humourous and nice. May they live happily ever after.

<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3

2008-12-07T08:30:00.000-08:00

3 lil pigs!!!

The first sister is definitely the eldest, which is me.

The naughtiest, most rebelious and make my parents angry, worry the most.
My mum always used to always say i have metal teeth(ti ki) >.<

The Second sister

She is my 16 years old sister.

She is the most sensible and most well-behaved among three of us! She seems more like the Dajie instead of me. She is not very smart but she is very hardworking.

The Third sister

The youngest of the family. My 12 years old sister.

She is my smallest sister. Smart girl but too lazy. In some ways, she resemble me, all the bad things. =.-

You better behave yourself, if not mum gonna say "geng da jie yi yang", den it's me again!

Aights! Love you girls! =)=)=)

2008-12-04T02:15:00.000-08:00

Does this look like a funeral photo?

Seriously, damn damn damn pekcek. why pekcek right? if you lose ur phone and memory, wouldnt you be as frustrated too? will you just be calm and happily accept the fact?

so it's time to get a new phone maybe the landyard i always wanted to buy as well.

Tml. 5 dec, my last day of school and time to say good bye to DBA. Finally, 1 yr just past like tht.
str8 after tht back to be chanel girl again.

no life! or is tht just life?

2008-11-30T01:58:00.000-08:00

#1. More beauty slp and less drinking from now on, i can feel my body rejecting.
#2. More healthy and regular meals.
#3. Saw zing and frens, she is gonna do leopard prints. How cool tht is?!?! lol.
#4. Get my stuffs done too.
#5. Happy birthday jean n whitney. =)

2008-11-17T06:18:00.000-08:00

feeling sicker than ytd.

how to work tml?

super relunctant to work tml.

sickness go away, come again another day.

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super dizzy.

zzzz

2008-11-16T03:11:00.000-08:00

#1. sick
#2. hungry but no appetite
#3. graduating soon, time to decide what's next again.
#4. hate those ah tiong at the new outlet =.- thou they buy alot
#5. saw ah ler and his gf at new outlet, he seems shock to see me. did i turn uglier by alot?!?!
#6. watching taiwan drama ming zhong zhu ding wo ai ni. msia chiong disc damn f-up, watch till pekcek.
#7. when actually all you have said and done is all lies
#8. geraldine says missing you become a stagnant line.

2008-11-15T09:58:00.000-08:00

说好的幸福呢

你的回话凌乱着

在这个时刻我想起喷泉旁的白鸽

甜蜜散落了

情绪莫名的拉扯

我还爱你呢而你断断续续唱着歌

假装没事了

时间过了走了

爱情面临选择

你冷了倦了我哭了

离开时的不快乐

你用卡片手写着

有些爱只给到这真的痛了

怎么了你累了

说好的幸福呢

我懂了不说了

爱淡了梦远了

开心与不开心一一细数着

你再不舍那些爱过的感觉都太深刻

我都还记得

你不等了说好的幸福呢

我错了泪干了放手了后悔了

只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着

要怎么停呢

2008-10-27T13:25:00.000-07:00

from 100th floor to lst floor.

2008-10-18T08:50:00.000-07:00

today is SATURDAY night

BUT

IM AT HOME!!!

LOL! whit and the rest went to ah james korkor's place.(st james) did not join them cos im still hanging on the hangover. serve me right! hangover yet still gotta wake up and work, zwtf! so tonight it's time to rest. hope the girls have fun!

Aights! More beauty slp please!

2008-10-18T08:21:00.000-07:00

do drivers always lost control of their vehicles?
do pilots lost control of their planes from time to time?
do they lost their ways when they are traveling?
do anyone lost control of themselves and feel so helpless not being able to behave like how they wanted to?
where are we in our subconscious?
is it the same as in real life?
why do people do things that they dont wan to do?
why do people have to behave in how their parents or siblings or friends want them to be?
why do people have to make themselves unhappy so that someone else could be happy?
why are there feelings, emotions and thoughts?
I wonder.

2008-10-01T21:48:00.000-07:00

hanging, still hanging

running, still running

sighing, still sighing

gotta go to work now

tired

moodless

not feeling well

strengthless

2008-10-01T06:34:00.000-07:00

stayuptill4inthemorning

andthetearsarepouring

2008-09-27T08:47:00.000-07:00

saw this website, very cute.

http://new-dan.blogspot.com

2008-09-27T08:43:00.000-07:00

Sorry Whitney! Sorry Jean!
Thank you Whitney! Thank you Jean!
Love you girls!

2008-09-27T01:14:00.000-07:00

他不爱我
牵手的时候太冷清
拥抱的时候不够靠近
oh他不爱我
说话的时候不认真
沉默的时候又太用心
我知道
他不爱我
他的眼神说出他的心
我看透了他的心
还有别人逗留的背影
他的回忆清除的不够乾净
我看到了他的心
演的全是他和她的电影
他不爱我
尽管如此他还是赢走了我的心
我知道他不爱我
他的眼神说出他的心
我看透了他的心
还有别人逗留的背影
他的回忆清除的不够乾净
我看到了他的心
演的全是他和她的电影
他不爱我
尽管如此他还是赢走了我的心
我看透了他的心
还有别人逗留的背影
他的回忆
清除的不够乾净
我看到了他的心
演的全是他和她的电影
他不爱我
尽管如此他还是赢走了我的心

2008-09-27T00:05:00.000-07:00

how can i cry on your shoulder when you are not ard.

2008-09-26T07:42:00.000-07:00

alone

ALONE

alone

ALONE

alone

ALONE

stress from everywher.

no one to turn to.

no one to grumble to.

breaking down.

running away from everything.

my fears. my bad. my unhappiness. my tears. trying to put on that smile.

i hate facing the fact, i just realised im still running a never ending marathon with myself.

2008-09-23T09:24:00.000-07:00

i need to release

---------St James tml---------

call me if you are going

2008-09-23T09:02:00.000-07:00

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sad face sad face and more sad face.

strengthless

helpless

sadness

unhappiness

more and more negative feelings

MY MOOD

#initially#

HAPPY LEVEL: IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII

#After 2 trainee wicked witch came into my life#

HAPPY LEVEL: IIIIIIIIII

It dropped by half. :(:(:(

#After a fully trained wicked witch joined in#

HAPPY LEVEL: I

It dropped by another half. :(:(:(:(:(:(

Almost collapsed.

sighs.

2008-09-14T09:45:00.000-07:00

I need a break!!!

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2008-09-09T21:40:00.000-07:00

Clubbing or Pubbing tonight?
More pictures to be up soon........

2008-09-09T21:11:00.000-07:00

This is a stupid grumble post

#1. Dont push me around like a FARKING ball. Look at me horizontally! Look at me vertically! Because no matter how you look at me, i dont look like a ball!
#2. Hey fren, when i treat you as a fren, dont treat me as a fool. Use the trick to lie to someone else in front of me, then dont be stupid enough to use the same lie on me. Cant you be more creative? Or is your brain empty?
#3. Dont keep me waiting till the last minute den you say "oh, im going out with someone else." It's damn annoying.
#4. I know you are aggresive in doing sales, eager to earn lots of commission. But dont do it in a way people will hate you and gossip behind you.
#5. I hate school, reluctant to go to school.
#6. I love CHANEL, enjoying the work and payout there. But the amount of working days sometimes make me afraid of going to work.

#7. Stupid FTT! you better let me pass on the 18th.

After all those working and schooling, time is already not enough for me to rest moreover play, yet there are still so much shit going on for me.

These are what i wish to happen.

#1. 48 hours a day for me please.

#2. Unlimited pay cheques.

#3. Unlimited shoppings.

#4. Endless alcohol and music all night long.

#5. Stress free life.

#6. Good friends, good colleagues and good classmates.

#7. Driving done.

PEACE PLEASE.

2008-08-20T04:05:00.000-07:00

I always needed time on my own

I never thought I'd need you there when I cry

And the days feel like years when I'm alone

And the bed where you lie is made up on your side

When you walk away I count the steps that you take

Do you see how much I need you right now

When you're gone

The pieces of my heart are missing you

When you're goneThe face I came to know is missing too

When you're gone

The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok

I miss you

I've never felt this way before

Everything that I do reminds me of you

And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor

And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do

When you walk away I count the steps that you take

Do you see how much I need you right now

We were made for each other

Out here forever

I know we were, yeah

All I ever wanted was for you to know

Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul

I can hardly breathe I need to feel you right here with me

Nostalgia

that lingering ache in my heart.

2008-08-15T07:20:00.000-07:00

EXAMS' OVER!!!

Good News :

When school starts, it's gonna be my last sem in PSB! That's so great, ya? LOL. I cant wait to scram back to SIM.

Bad News :

#1 - Yet to have time to play, im starting work tomorrow. So tired.

#2 - I only have 2 weeks of holidays.

#3 - Starting 26 July, my practical lessons starts. So from 1 sept till i finish my lessons and wait for TP, i only have 1 or nil off days in order to go to school at the same time go to work and go for driving lessons.

I need more beauty sleep to stop my back from aching. Less heels as well.

2008-08-14T08:38:00.000-07:00

LAST LAST LAST LAST LAST LAST LAST LAST LAST LAST

LAST DAY OF EXAM TML!

FINALLY.

I hate daniel chew, lst time i see lecturer giving wrong exam guidelines.

Only 10-15% of guideline came out in the exam paper.

Hell to Human Resource!!!

2008-08-11T03:33:00.000-07:00

4 more days to exam over!!!

:):):):):)

2008-07-29T09:56:00.000-07:00

Clubbing,Clubbing,Clubbing

The clubbing events for the past 1 month.

Things didnt have a big change, it was still either dblO or StJames. But just lesser and more discipline. As in only on certain days, like the night before off days.
I think it's better to show photos and to type so much words.

Me and Whit

Alvan and Guanda

Whit, Me and Alvan

My crazy girl! :)

Dragonfly

Whit,Guanda and Alvan

He is my darling(fake one)

Look at her "seh" face! LOL!

Gay in action:)

Minghao and Wesley

They are twins! Mingjie and Minghao

The dragonfly drink

She like to act ugly. Beside's stamford

Wesley and Stamford

Home Sweet Home:):)

2008-07-29T09:28:00.000-07:00

Samsonite Roadshow

Had a wonderful experience working at Samsonite. Though I dont even know what's Samsonite before i went for the roadshow. When Jean ask me whether i wanted to work at the roadshow selling suitcases, briefcases and bags, i was quite relunctant at first. It's like asking the girls to carry the suitcases around, unzipping and zipping it back for god knows how many times a days. Explaining and promoting stuffs that we actually have no knowledge about. LOL. Even the place to interview is damn ulu! The prices is ranging from at least 70-600++, in my mind, i thought who the hell will be out of their mind to get a $620 polycarbonate suitcase or a $95 small ladybird backpack for kids. But at the end of the roadshow, i realised everything is just the opposite. The colleagues were all fun-loving and easy going, customers were not just abit. We actually meet the targets and i felt abit upset that the roadshow is over. Omg. Sighs, im back to be the chanel girl again.

This umbrella is for kids, cost is $20. I wanted to buy but no more stocks.

So cute right?

LOOK AT THIS CRAZY GUY!

He's our backpack boy aka Timberboy. He was so stress that he messed up his hair when we were about to close for the day and have not meet the sales target for the day.

Even the camera refused to capture a clear photo of him

Nerd yeah?

2008-07-29T09:20:00.000-07:00

A night in Boat Quay with Jean, Whit and XS

Whit likes to make ugly face!

Dont know wher the others photo gone to.

2008-07-29T08:53:00.000-07:00

The photos i found in my phone memory

Cant rem wher i took this. but it's nice right?

Peiting, me, anna and zing

My sis

Me

Zing n me long time ago when VD is still around

Ahma and me:):)

This is what i've caught

I missed my eyebrow piercing :(

Toopid face!

He's so cute!

2008-07-13T02:09:00.000-07:00

[ti:一个人]

[ar:蔡依林]

从皮包里扯出我们的照片

沙发要移到客厅的另一边

晚饭后你可以多尝几口想念

已经没什么人会埋怨

晴天阴天今天又是星期天

唯一的打算是心更乱一些

反正我不知道怎样打发时间

出门或不出门没差别

一个人

到底应该选右边或左边

两个人

每一次争吵都值得纪念

一个人

偶尔感到寂寞在所难免

你的气味还留在枕头边

一个人

我重新适应一切不方便

两个人

不一定就成全一个世界

一个人

关灯看见记忆的横切面

没有光线过去那些情节

更明显

到底应该是右边或左边

呜……

更明显

ihopeyouarehappywithyourchoice.allalongijustwantyoutobehappy.

thatlingeringpainthatkeepcomingbackonceinawhile.

2008-07-06T07:59:00.000-07:00

My chalet in June
The photo and post is finally up! lols, been too lazy.

Day#1

the 2 bdae girls : Me and ahma

my ahma cute right?

Sis and Me

my 2 uncles

Happy Family:)

After the cake cutting session, guess what happen? hahas! Hide-and-seek!

Can you see the 2 girls in the white circle? it me and my sis. We fell down after being caught. How dumb!

Day#2

Shock of the morning!~

Do i look better when it's blur?

2 of my besties. dunno wher are the rest?

PSB rocks!?!?! hmm, do we??

So i guess pictures speaks a thousand words:):)

2008-06-24T14:09:00.001-07:00

4inthemorning has past. It's 5:10am in the morning now. Guess what am i doing? i cant believe this, im at changi airport doing project with ber, kenneth and king. Zomg! And in less than 4 hrs time, i have OB lessons. My eyelids weigh a ton now. Zombie! zombie! im gonna look like a zombie in class later. After one whole night of torture, my HR project still seems to have lost it's way, not knowing which direction to go to. Looking at the project and the question given, only 2 words came to my mind. The 2 words is : NO LINK! lol. My back is starting to ache again.

2008-06-16T08:22:00.000-07:00

Monday-Went tcss den Las Vegas

Tuesday-Went tcss den Las Vegas

2 days of singing and watching soccer

Wednesday-Working at Sassy den prawning

Thursday- dblO and Rumours

Friday- Dinner with family

Saturday- St James

Sunday- Tcss and prawning

Busy week.

I had most fun on thursday and saturday.

On thursday it was supposed to be countdown for my birthday. HAPPI BIRTHDAY GIRL! :)dblO was freaking pack for dunno what reason. The dancefloor was a "NONO" to enter, dont even think there are hardly any girls in there. So we decided to go to Rumours. The liveband there sang a birthday song for me and the other 1 or 2 birthday bdae boy/girl. Jacky5 was so funny that night. I think he love jelly loads. haha!
Saturday was St James. This time, whitney came with me and my friends. It was my first time to boiler room and i think i love that place. 3 jokes for that night!

Joke #1

One of the male singer was singing Endless Love, a duet, but he sang it alone. He sing really well. One side of him was wearing a dress and wig. When it was the female part he turn to another side, when it was the male part he turned back again. He keep turning and turning while singing. I guess everyone was just as amazed as me. The way he do it is so funny, everyone was laughing and clapping for him.

Joke#2

That same singer that sing Endless Love was playing a game with selected customers. He was to teach two of them a few dance steps. The one who couldnt do the steps according to the rhythm of the music the first time will have to let him squeeze their balls. hahas. The one who couldnt do the steps given the 2nd chance will hav to squeeze that singer's balls. Laughs out loud! What a sporting one!

Joke#3

The birthday boy was with his gf outside the club smoking. Suddenly the gf said something like:
"Why your body so hot?" ( she mean that why is his body so warm)

The birthday boy replied:

"Body hot? Hot dog den sibei hot ar!"

Laughs out loud!

2008-05-31T20:51:00.001-07:00

MOANING SUNSHINE!!! :0):0):0)
Woke up super early today, even earlier than when i need to go to school. slept super early last night too. Went to market for breakfast with mum and grandma. My mum and ah ma was so shock to see me at home on a sat night. No dblO last night, was considering to go st james wif them instead but decide to give it a miss. I wonder how was St james last night, must be damn packed. Anyway, i guess i like it this way, the healthy lifestyle. :) Hope i could find the information i need for my project later. This will be the first time i step into the national library at bras basah.
So looking forward to wildwildwet next week. :):)

2008-05-28T22:54:00.000-07:00

the lingering pain on her heart that keeps haunting her once in a while

2008-05-26T08:37:00.000-07:00

ME @ OO last saturday night

My two fav Pigs(Pics =P)

Us :):)

It was a rather messy night for me, i guess. Hope this week will be a better one. I still wanna find my 2 boyfriend, ben & jerry. The brownies flavour please.

2008-05-21T12:04:00.000-07:00

3.04am. Just reached home after work @ Sassy and supper. Someone said the word "Nostalgia" to me just now. On our way to supper, the journey passed by places that make me had "that" feeling. Henderson road, commonwealth west, tea garden, farrer road, lorni road. Those roads that i used to take almost everyday. Just when emotions and life seems to turn normal, when spending everyday alone does not matter, the reality show that the truth wasnt like what i thought it was. Flashbacks and traces of him or us didnt let me go.

She miss him.

She was wrong thinking that she was fine.

Even getting near to those places spoil her night.

The strong front was getting fragile.

Those thoughts came chasing after her again.

2008-05-20T08:45:00.000-07:00

THE SUPER CUTE HANDPHONE';S STRAP & KEYCHAINS!~

2008-05-20T07:34:00.000-07:00

1) STEAMBOAT WITH XIAOQI, PEPPER & BOBO

MY 2 FAVOURITES : FISH & PRAWNS

DOES THIS LOOKS LIKE HONEYDEW INSTEAD OF FISH?

2) WEETENG'S BIRTHDAY

THE FOOD WT'S MUM COOK FOR US

WT & FAMILY

SISTAS:):)

3) TCSS

Me & Cherrie, Me & Ken

Me & Gwen

4)Wedding dinner

2008-05-20T07:08:00.000-07:00

IT'S GRUMBLE TIME!!~ :):)
1. Stingy people - hey please, stingy dont have to show it to the whole world, hide in the wardrobe please.
2. People who like to boost - If you dont even own Mount Ophir, dont go around telling ppl you own Mount Fuji.
3. Irresponsible people - I know you are not oblige to be responsible to anyone, but can you please at least be responsible to yourself. Take pride in the things you need to do, your job, your friends and the trust people have in you.
4.Indecisive people - I understand that some of us are just abit more indecisive than the others, but maybe you can just learn to decide on some of the things. Don't expect me to make all the decisions! stress ya?!?!
5. People who dont appreciate me - I take everyone of you as my friend sincerely, but dont treat me as a fool. I can be nice, but i can bite till you ROT. Actually, it's really disappointing for those people to not appreciate you, heartbreaking.
6. People who abuse my trust - It makes or breaks everything. A person will never be a fool twice, once is enough.
7. People who bomb my phone - I hate it
8. People who put on that mask - Keeping quiet doesnt means im stupid. At the time i refuse to confront you or say anything, it simply means no need for explanations. Not gonna talk to you means not gonna talk to you.
9. Ungrateful people - It simply sucks to be you.
10. LIARS - i hate these people the most.

I guess im just too tired. Maybe a non-stop sleep for three days would help. Pershaps, things will turn better after the sleep :):):):):):):):):0:0:0:0:0

2008-05-19T11:43:00.001-07:00

i want to hav 2 boyfriend. One named ben, the other named jerry. i wanna eat them everyday with different flavours.

2008-05-19T04:12:00.000-07:00

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY
I NEED MORE HAPPINESS TO CHASE MY WHOLE LOAD OF UNHAPPINESS AWAY PLEASE
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2008-05-11T03:09:00.000-07:00

MY BACK HURTS!!!
Yesterday was the usual DblO's night we have during every saturday. For god knows what reasons, my back hurts like hell. Before we went in to DblO, we went for the stupid bak ruk teh @MS. The trotter they served compared to the one in Ang Mo Kio Ave 1 was heaven and hell. So damn fat and oily. Walking back to DblO, gwen went off. Everyone was split, Zing went to eat, jelly went to O bar with Cup-F. I'm standing by the table looking at Qijie and Andy like a dead boring girl. Actually im damn tired and im bothered by my back, hurting.
But after 1+2am, RNB started. I think i dance like at least 1 hour+ at the pordium. After everything, i knew for sure the next day i need to lie in bed for dunno how many hours to rest my back. When i woke, it's already dinner time. I've been lying in bed for more than 12 hours. damn my back. :(

2008-05-10T03:01:00.000-07:00

One thing i learnt and forced to agree is:
Never try to or even think that you can change a person, be'cos you will only fall badly.

2008-05-10T00:10:00.000-07:00

DRINK DRANK DRUNK~~
Think i've said a loads of rubbish again last night. Sorry to all. Spend almost the whole week at boat quay, even on off day. Yesterday was really tiring, not enough sleep, rush to work, work done went lunar. Madness! I guess i heard what jelly say dunno is on the cab or at boat quay. "She thinks you are too harsh or she think your words are too harsh". Something like that, that's the only sentence i remembered.
To you: Im sorry if im too harsh to you. Really sorry, i dont mean it.

2008-05-09T02:21:00.000-07:00

SASSY BAR

SASSY SASSY SASSY SASSY SASSY

damn! gotta work again today! >.<

2008-05-07T22:31:00.000-07:00

Why do human beings dream when they are sleeping? What is a dream actually? How do you differentiate a bad dream and a nightmare?
I had a dream just now. Was it a nightmare or bad dre4m? hmm. I think i've always been dreaming about something similiar for quite some time. The dream is something like someone kept chasing behind me, no matter where and how fast i ran, I never seems to be able to get away. All i could do is run and scream, the feeling is freaking helpless and full of fear. And when you woke, your heart feel damn heavy and sour, somehow there's still abit of fear.
o.o
what happen actually?

fcuk off pls :):)

2008-05-07T15:20:00.001-07:00

6:20 am, i'm posting a post at this ungodly hour. Actually i just reach home about 5:48 or 5:49. Was at work den went to lunar den rumours. All that wasn't important! Regarding this post i've got to say!

I'm not gonna be that stupid anymore! once is enough! I've loved enough, give in enough, put in as much effort as i can and now no more! I swear! definitely no! no more guys gonna be tht lucky anymore! I'm gonna say fcuk off and die! burn yourself please!

i'm tired after so much drinks. good night ppls :) honey dreams everyone!

The saying goes:
" Nan ren bu huai, nu ren bu ai" but actually in this 21st century,
The saying goes like this:
"Nu ren bu huai, nan ren bu ai."
It's actually the opposite! OMG, what's has the world became??!?!?!?

2008-05-06T12:23:00.000-07:00

Can i have Ben&Jerry please?
I love FLINTSTONES!:)

2008-05-06T08:33:00.000-07:00

Finally one happy post after so long :) It's peihua aka ahbao's birthday.

The food we had at Serangoon Garden's CafeCartel :)

After dinner, we went to liquid kitchen for some drinks and catch back sessions :)

JieMeis:):) hahas

What we used to do during sec sch days was the birthday girl will have nutrients of the cake on her face. Pushing her head to smash the cake seems fun, miss those days. :( lols. Memories. Hate to grow up.

LOVES :):)

Shock of the night!!!!! LOL >.<

Okie, now's time for some thoughts. Hmm, although not everyone of the click is present for PH's birthday, but still feel that it's really happy to see that at least everyone tried to make the effort to gather and celebrate for her. It's been two years since we separated ways after 5 years in Peirce sec. Really hate to grow up, miss those days in Peirce, just enjoy everyday and get spoon fed by those wonderful teachers. I just wanna dream and nua everyday, the world and reality is too much for me to take. Well, hope things remain this way, never abandon me, love you all jiemeis. :):) This might sounds abit silly or crazy, but it's really not easy to always be in contact with friends that you hardly see. All in different environment, some working, some studying, some slacking. I guess that's just something between good friends, always just a call or text away. :):)

2008-05-04T01:52:00.000-07:00

SHE HATE FLU!!!
For dunno what reasons, it came looking for her again. She felt as if her nose were dropping anytime soon. Is she gonna fall apart soon? She doesn't know what she is doing everyday and it getting worse, it seems like she sinking to a bottomless pit. Everything she do seems meaningless, just like a wandering soul. She is another person now, no longer the old, strong her and she hates it. She knows that problems and stress are inevitable but can they stop finding her for a moment, just let her rest for a while can?
Stress 1.
Money - just find a job, earn it and take back from those who borrowed.
Stress 2.
Mr A, B, C - just off the phone and they cant do anything.
Stress 3.
Family - just agree with them, dont argue, hide in the room or go out of the house and things will be fine.
Stress 4.
Tears - just let time do the job
Stress 5.
Friends - this should be the most "brain juice consuming problem". The problem arises when words gets too difficult to be spoken, when meeting each others becomes a form of stress, when things each other do starts to annoy each other. Maybe they doesnt know, when she sound too harsh or angry, it's just her temper. She doesnt mean to hurt anyone or bear any grudges. She should just shut up, f-off and end everyone's misery? She knows there's a problem but what's the problem? Is everything just my fault? Is my securities causing everyone to hate me? Is my presence causing unhappiness to everyone? If yes, please let me know. I promise, i will just SCRAM.

2008-05-01T00:32:00.000-07:00

Tears rolled down her face again.
She was too stressed.
Those calls n messages.
Till the phone have no more bat and shut off.
Actually, why dont they understand she just need peace and time?
Sighz.

The tough long road

2008-04-29T12:55:00.000-07:00

**STUPIDHER**
She's too handicapped to move, stuck in those illusions left by memories.
She's too blind to realise that the previous loving man has gone long time ago.
She's too deaf to take those hurtful, awful stuffs said by the man into heart.
She's as if she mute. Words in her heart cant seems to come out of the mouth, it was too difficult.
Her mind, heart and soul was not in place, where is it?
Her heart could only feel numbness and sourness, no longer pain
She was always not in the right frame of mind
Her soul flew.
********************************************************
A call came, a call that made her tears dropped. She knew that she's really gotta stop crying stop thinking stop making her life so damn freaking miserable. She's gonna isolate herself for every one time she cry from now onwards.
The call.
Making it short on what the call was about. He practically told XX this,
"No more means no more, no need to ask for reason or whatever. I never like to see those rubbish."
So, that was the reasons for parting the ch, removing his own xs, blocking and deleting her from Msn. Now what? She doesnt even have the rights to voice her thoughts? She never know she was such a nuisance, sorry for bothering. He had never change, still as heartless and unfeeling.
It's gonna be a long, tough way.
Move on please, girl?

Blocked. Deleted.

2008-04-27T11:11:00.000-07:00

Blocking and deleting me away from your msn makes you feel better? I never know i was such a nuisance. Sorry for bothering. Im really speechless. I cant imagine i could be this stupid, never was I. Is it really time for me to just off my phone, lock in my room and hide in the wardrobe. I had enough of crying and crying, drinking till im mad. I had enough. I couldnt move. Im stuck.

Someone. please please, get me out of this helpless shit.

2008-04-27T09:59:00.000-07:00

I knew things would happen this way from the day we conclude what is a hideous angel
Things always dont happen this way you want it to be
I understand, I just hope the best situation for everyone.
What ever happens, be it quarrels or misunderstandings, you are still my goodfren
I've said the last thing i wan to see is you being unhappy.
My words might be harsh but i dont mean it, never to you.

They kept chasing after me.

2008-04-27T00:19:00.000-07:00

Those memories, they kept chasing after her, refusing to let her go.
Tears followed closely.

Yesterday was another DblO's saturday night. Initially, it seems like no one is going except for herself, girlfren and diana. But ended up like more than ten or twelve of us, but were mostly girlfren's fren. It was as usual, drinking, taking photos and dancing. "His" good friend came along too. His good friend doesnt look alike as him, they dont have any similarities but somehow related to him. I guess she was real weak, so damn freaking weak that she hate herself for being so weak. Those thoughts and misses for him seems more alcoholic than those alcohol in DblO.
***********************************************
Today.
Beep beep, beep beep. 1 message received.
Mr A: konnichiwa :) what time do you wanna meet me?
Me: (thinking, oh shit! promise to watch movie with him) Ermm, msg you later when im done with my things

After a while, beep beep, beep beep. 1 message received.
Mr B: Wan to go out later?
Me: (thinking, shit, another one) Erm. I've got many things to do, think i will finish my stuffs quite late.
Another msg came.
Mr B: It's ok. Msg me when you are done, i go and fetch you.
Me: (thinking, shit! pwned. die liao)

Later. Another msg came.
Mr C: you wanna watch movie ma?
This time, she is stressed. So, Mr C receive a most trueful answer.
Me. 3 different person ask me out on the same day. Who should i go with? Or should i just hide in the wardrobe?

The one you kept thinking will never think of you
The one you want to go out with will never ask you out
That one person will be the one that make you cry the most
Should she just off her phone, locked in the room and hide in the wardrobe?

Tears~

The so not "you" You.

2008-04-25T16:26:00.000-07:00

She wasn't as angry as they were. She felt there was a need for help to be given, but not to be return with disappointment and ended up not being appreciated.

1. Not taking pride in one's works is totally unforgivable, irresponsibility is not accepted. Chances dont come easily, once missed and will not given again.

2. Trust, it makes and breaks everything. Once trust isnt expandable, you have taken it and used it. However it was abused, don't ever expect it to come so easily again.

3. As friends, help will always be given whenever possible, but always remember we can choose not to help. So do not take it for granted.

4. Parties get you nowhere, prioritize what is important. Resist all the temptations and desires.

5. Please take off that sacade of yours, trying to be the so not "you" you. Your angelic appearances overlaps the hideous devilish side of yours.

6. Stop those aeroplanes flying in the air, it makes them sick. The planes you flew is enough for a new-built airport.

7. Never forget those people that are good to you, never be ungrateful. When people treat you as a friend, never take them as a fool, you will never know what they are capable of doing.

**MAY GOD BLESS YOU. =.-**

imissyou still**

2008-04-22T11:48:00.001-07:00

She miss you, so much that she couldnt see herself.
tears kept dropping
so much misses
the pain that lingers on her heart
the loneliness she bear
the emptied glass shell she carried
the memories that kept flashing on her mind
all the emotions and thoughts that he wouldnt know
IMISSYOU***

2008-04-22T11:48:00.000-07:00

The message goes like this :
"Seriously if you don't want be friend i m fine with that fren what i feeling that outing on friday you are avoiding and on sunday the way you type sound so arrogant and even today you think i own you a feeling or let you take for granted? you wan everybody pamer you arh please la grow up you if youthink you not childish so be it lo even you ask do thing also aeroplane i first time try want to read dont want read not my problem. just let you know."
Hmm. Regarding this message (the above msg) sent by that special someone, i guess you will be seems as very weird by friends that know me very well. Here is afew opinions i have about the above message sent by "that special someone."
1. I don't quite understand some of the points that you said such as "i m fine with that fren", which friend?, "even today you think i own you a feeling", own me what? and "i first time try want to read dont want read not my problem. just let you know". First time what? I dont understand your english nor do i understand what you meant.
2. Think about the number of people at the outing,use your bloody fingers and toes to count, 11 of us! M i suppose to entertain everyone of you? So that's considered as avoiding?
3. If you think the way i type was arrogant on Sunday was arrogant, why not think about yourself? Go around thinking you are the king, emofying people, making people hear your grumbles. Your assumptions you thought you were always right.
4. I will admit my wrongs if it was my fault. I will never deny. I called you to apologize and said i will go meet you all asap. But i was fooled. And what's most ridiculous? You made someone admit that he didnt tell you all i was coming and not leaving me there on purpose. The things he said on my main made it so obvious that he was forced to admit. Now what? He doesnt even talks to me.
5. Your good friend. You told me the person that was your good friend, just because of a call just because a outing, you call him cheehong kia. What is the meaning of friend to you? I will never forget what you said to me that night over the phone before going to sentosa. You said "peng you shi na lai li yong de".
6. You said i made use of you and you have always thought that way right? If so, why force yourself to be my friend?
7. You like to flare and scold me right? Let me tell you, the first time i listen to all your naggings and scoldings because i felt that there was a need to explain things i couldnt things i didnt do or words i didnt said. The second time, i couldnt be bothered, i just ignored the awful things you would say for sure. It was stressful and redundant talking to you. I aint here to let you scold, they aint there to let you scold either. If not for the values you have, would they bear with you?
8. You think i thought that everyones pampers me? Please! If everyone really pampers me, it's my problem, not yours! And nobody asks for you to pamper them, i bet you could only torture ppl.
9. If im childish, what are you? Trying means and ways to get the person just because so that you could scold her? Thinking that saying bye in smses and online is so cool? If you say bye then mean it. Don't keep saying bye in smses and continue scolding her online.
10. If you think you are a grown-up man, drop that thought! Please! A grown-up man wouldn't say those irrational, awful things to a girl. You kept saying you are a reasonable person. A reasonable person will not blahblahblah non-stop till he happy then let the person speak.
Forget it! No matter how much i blog is pointless, you are that lil boy that thinks highly of himself, thinking you are always right.
I know you hate me if you see this post. But my mummy says i shouldnt lie or keep all the things to myself, so im saying it to my blog.

The fragile empty shell made of glass~

2008-04-22T10:17:00.000-07:00

That is the first time i ever get scolded for making a phone call. For god's sake!! -.= Why would I want to fool you with a prank call when i wouldn't even prank ah\pink, someover you are a friend of mine. Everyone seems like people that would harm you or fool you in your thoughts. Is that really what you think?
Went to the mac garden to find girlfren and others just now, the usual gossips and laughters accompany us. No matter how much laughters there is, my mind always sway to some other thoughts that emofied me. Maybe not shown on the face, but in the heart. I felt like msging girlfren(zing) when i was walking home alone.
I typed: Hey girlfren, shall we stay single together? Then i think abt it, it sounded quite wrong. LOL. So, the msg wasnt send.
Then, this was our msn conversation after we reached home.

º-×‡.ªbйđºй.яîbž.®‡×-º°[miym,ciyl] mindsoulheart says (1:13 AM):
girlfren
°º-×‡.ªbйđºй.яîbž.®‡×-º°[miym,ciyl] mindsoulheart says (1:13 AM):
shall we stay single tgt?
zing. says (1:14 AM):
i single for so long already
zing. says (1:14 AM):
makes no difference.
zing. says (1:14 AM):
lols
°º-×‡.ªbйđºй.яîbž.®‡×-º°[miym,ciyl] mindsoulheart says (1:14 AM):
lols
°º-×‡.ªbйđºй.яîbž.®‡×-º°[miym,ciyl] mindsoulheart says (1:14 AM):
cant you say tht for me you will stay single
°º-×‡.ªbйđºй.яîbž.®‡×-º°[miym,ciyl] mindsoulheart says (1:14 AM):
LOL im crazy
zing. says (1:15 AM):
HAHAHHAS CANNOT PROMISE YOU THIS!
zing. says (1:15 AM):
WHAT IF ONE DAY **** COMES BACK
zing. says (1:15 AM):
LOLS!
°º-×‡.ªbйđºй.яîbž.®‡×-º°[miym,ciyl] mindsoulheart says (1:16 AM):
lols. i will wish you twoo happiness and kick you out of the lao chu nv's club!

Girlfren was my primary school friend, i know her when i was pri 1!. Amazing right?!?! Once, she msg me she was at the riverside with her friend and was feeling very down. I was with him, i didn't go down to accompany her, actually i feel very bad. She accompanied me through my very sad days.
**I PROMISED NEVER TO LEAVE YOU BY THE RIVERSIDE FEELING DOWN ANYMORE!**

I was at the traffic light, nobody is gonna hold her hands and cross the road anymore. Sigh, she has turned an empty shell. Not a hard and strong shell like that of a crab or tortoise, it was a fragile shell made of glass that breaks easily and tears flow out.
She ***** him lot and she refused to move on, she realised that.

BTT and the Maggi Mee

2008-04-21T07:14:00.000-07:00

Finally passed my basic theory, though many said it was easy, it seems far away from me. But now, it's time to proceed to another stage. I registered for the PDL as well, which took me more than one hour to queue for it. I went home iimmediately after that, my back pain started. It's was sick, came to me always when i have not enough rest. I lied flat on the bed and slept till 9.10pm. Laughs Out Loud** So im wondering how m i gonna slp tonight. Iwas so happy when i saw the word PASSED on the screen. I went out of the room, took a Q number from the counter. I wanted to share this happy feeling with others. The first person that came to my mind was my uncle, then girlfren. Suddenly, he came into my mind. I realised it wasnt possible for me to share it with him anymore.
Things in everydays life seems to always remind me of him, even a packet of maggi mee. Terrible?! ain't it?! Yesterday, or pershap most of the days, meals are eaten outside. I was so lazy to step out of the house and buy food, so maggi mee was the only choice left. When i first cooked maggi at his house, his reply was something like :
Him: Ni bu hui zhu maggi mian ar? Na li shi zhe yang zhu de!?!?!
(you cant even cook maggi? this isnt the way to cook it.)

Me: Wo yi zhi do shi zhe yang zhu de, bu rang yao zhe yang zhu?
(i've been cooking it like this for so long, if not how you want me to cook?)

Him: Fen na li ke yi xian fang, bu ke yi geng water yi qi boil.
(how can you let the flavourings boil with the water)

Me: Wo cong lai mei you ting guo zhu maggi mian zhe yang ma fan
(I've never heard of such a troublesome way to cook maggi.)

Me, him and his mother shows 3 different ways of cooking maggi mee.
My way: As long as water boils, noodle or flavourings first doesnt matter.
His way: Water to be boiled, put in noodle, then egg. Off the fire, then put in flavourings
His mother: Boiled the noodles. pour away the water in the pot. Boil the noodles with another pot of water, then add egg. Off the fire, then put in flavourings. The purpose of pouring away the first pot of water is because the noodles was said to be waxed.

Now, i've used back the way i used to cook maggi mee. It doesn't matter anymore. does it?

2008-04-20T04:43:00.000-07:00

I guess im proven wrong again with my perception again. Disappointment visit me always, getting used to it is a must. Alright, pointless to kept brooding about that.
Ohhya, yesterday was Gwendolyn's birthday. We were at DblO, as usual on a saturday night. HAPPY BIRTHDAY GWENDOLYN!:):):):):)

The lil thing you used to do.

2008-04-18T23:26:00.000-07:00

Finally, i felt like a normal human again today. Its been so long since i woke up so early and what's more surprising is that i actually went swimming, tanning. LOL. The sun was great, I love it. I was near the stairs of the medium pool when i saw this cute lil toddler and his mother (assuming it was a baby boy). His mother was supporting him with her hands. After that, i didnt see them till i swam to the other side of the pool like maybe half an hour later. This time, the father was with them too. They were ready to leave in anytime, all dressed. Then, the daddy took out a comb from the bag, sat beside his wife and started combing her hair. On one hand, I was quite surprised to see that. On another hand, it reminds me of him. The first time he came to me with a comb after i bathed, i thought he just want me to comb my hair, but instead he combed my hair for me. It's really sweet for a guy to do so, especially when he was someone special. He wasn't a romantic person, but the lil things he would do in everyday life would touch one's heart.
***iwouldratherloveyounowandregretlater,
thentoregretlaterfornotlovingyou***
***ihaveneverregretlovingyou, thoughithurts***

2008-04-18T13:51:00.000-07:00

#kdlo outing to cityhall today. The roof terrace at the top of esplanade mall was where we went after dinner. I saw a few new faces, faris/ herman's friends. The photo on top was what we took today. Entering the roof make me had some thoughts. It was obvious what kind of crowds the roof terrace would attracts, it was either big groups of friends, couples or couples-to-be.

The first couple i saw was dressed very nicely, in fact they looked like they were going straight to DXO after the "sight-seeing" at esplanade. Here comes my first thought, my type of guy WILL NOT BE:

1. wearing so nicely on purpose just because it's a date with the girl he fancies.

2. wearing long sleeves shirt and pants instead of tshirt and berms and still looking good.

3. putting any gel or wax on his hair (that's so uncool! i love the way him and his hair will be)

And then, I saw many couples, those very young ones! Please dont mistaken me! I mean im super young too, but they are like 15,16 or 17 (if were to judge by how they dress and behave). It reminds me of times when i was that age too. My 2nd thought : Going on dates with that cute lil boyfriend was like going to heaven (abit exaggerating. LOL) I meant it was simple, innocent and most importantly harmless. With all the sweet nothings, it makes the cute lil couple happier than scoring the top in class. Even the broke up was not a big damage, wounds heals easily,even scars would fade. Maybe just abit of tears and everything is over! But now, it ain't the same. Growing up seems to make reality cruel by AAAAALLLLOOOOOOTTT. That simple, sweet, harmless innocent lil loving game turned into a abandoning hurting truth. It wasnt the way it was as before anymore. It turned into a hurting, disappointing, damaging part of life. Oh my god, i couldnt imagine it was actually known to be part of life??!?!!

***ihaveneverblameyou,iunderstooditwaspartoflife,

trustme,cosihaveneverlietoyou***

***Was it you that i still loved so much or was it me that refused to move on***